How I learned to stop worrying and love my constructed selfhood

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I did, at some point. You did too. And so did Slothrop. We've all come to internalize the myths, stories, ideologies, etc., that define "who we are." For instance, we no longer need to be told what it means to "be a man" or "be a woman" - long ago we all appropriate some sense of what these categories mean, and we all perform those meanings day to day, moment to moment (even if we reject both categories, that is in itself a kind of performance). Following a thread of discussion from Wednesday's class, the first group brought up the passage on 338 when Slothrop is leaving Geli: "Slothrop feels his heart, out of control, inflate with love and rise quick as a balloon. It is taking him longer, the longer he's in the Zone, to remember to say aw quit being a sap. What is this place doing to his brain?" Maybe we can read this as the Zone begining to deconstruct Slothrop's masculinity. He has long ago internalized what it means to be "male," but the construction of that category, everything we might imagine it meaning to Slothrop, relies on a system of cultural, political, and economic, structures. "Masculine" doesn't mean anything outside the context of a language or discourse. In this sense, masculinity as we know it cannot really be sustained in the material conditions of the Zone, and this really throws a wrench in Slothrop's self-identification. It's a fleeting moment in the text, but I think it underscores how much potential the Zone, or whatever the Zone stands for, has for transforming the way the characters conceive of their world.